Officially an adult | Remeniscing my teenage years

So, as I'm currently sitting in a little coffee shop enjoying the gentle music and the sun shining on the green grass outside. I am in deep thought, there are 5 teenage girls next to me chatting and laughing about makeup and boys, and it makes me think how four years ago I was there in their position, not having a care in the world and only thing I needed to worry about is how long my hair could get. And now I am lounging here with an extra strong latté in my hand, knowing that this time tomorrow I will be twenty years old, it kinda scares me. I know that nothing between the time of now and tomorrow will change, but it's crazy to think that today is the last day of me being a teenager, officially. To be honest, my life couldn't be any better, I dreamed about where I am now. It's crazy to think that I was once a lonely, depressed teenager with braces and now I'm a fashion blogger working with high end fashion clothing and with a loving boyfriend who I am wanting to marry. I am happy, my life is on the high but yet I'm still scared to turn twenty. Why is that? Is it because I know now that I can't turn back and still act like a teenager if I needed to? Who knows. But I am going to try and turn these scared thoughts into excitement. I am older and there's nothing I can do, I just have to sit back and enjoy the ride of life. So to all the teenage girls who are sitting there, wanting to commit suicide for not being popular or for not being pretty enough. Don't worry. I was there and I got through it and you will too. Trust me, when it comes to the day before you turn twenty, those worries will not be there anymore. So enjoy your childhood while you can, and live your life being free. Just like I should of. So happy birthday to me, and goodbye to teenage Danielle. You will not be missed.

Post soon,

Danielle xoxo

Anxiety & Depression; dealing with public transport.

This subject really hits home to me because this time last year I got diagnosed with depression and sevier anxiety so for the past year I really didn't think it would be able to even step foot into a train or a bus again just because there's something about traveling on any sort of public transport that makes me very nervous. I guess it's just the fact that  leaving the house on your own is a independent thing to do even if you are 19 years old and have done it many times... It's almost as if you have to somehow regain your confidence so today I faced my fear and traveled on both a bus and a train. My experience? It went much better than I antisapated so here are my tips if you are a fellow sufferer.

1 - keep calm, cool and collected. Whether your on a train or a bus you need to act quite mellow, you don't want to start having a panic attack and drawing attention to yourself.

2 - try and find a seat that you can sit by youself. If you happen to be on a two seater try to bring a large handbag with you that can suclude you from the crowd

3 - have your closest parent or other half on speed dial. Personally for me bus journeys make me the most anxious so speaking to a close friend while I'm having a panic attack really calms my nerves.

I hope this short little blog post helped even one person suffering out there, just remember your not alone in this, if you want to contact me I'm more than happy to help you. My links are in the discription box. 

Post soon,

Danielle xxx